why ?

2018-08-06 10:19:50

why a blog ?

i needed a place to voice myself. i feel like i have a lot of things to say and i needed a place to do that.

i needed a place where i can share whats going on in my mind, what i think, what i feel and whats happening in my life to the rest of the world. a place where i can be comfortable being myself, without being judged [ visibly at the very least. you can judge me, but you can't do anything about it. mwahaha. seriously tho i don't want a visible audience, i.e the concept of views or likes or comments. i feel that if i'm being observed i can't be myself. some variation of the hawthorne effect i guess ]

i want to be able to log my life, in an effort to see how i spend my time and in order to hold myself accountable to use that time to the best of my ability.

i think of myself as a text based person and i find that the written word is the most efficient mode of communication. i like to write and i'd like to improve how i write [ i think my writing is okay ? idk. i often stumble around for words or a certain specific phrasing now and then. 'tip of my tongue' syndrome ]

and those are some reasons i use to justify the creation of this rant-space.

hello world

2018-08-01 10:43:13

hey

so yeah, after an eternity battling procrastination and boredom, i finally got the barebones of a blog generator down. i have no idea what to call it, but once i come up with a good enough name and polish the code up a little bit i'll share it on github or something. i'm pretty sure i can build on it and make it more streamlined or whatever. but all of thats later. as of now, "IT'S ALIVE !" and nothing else matters.

oh. its also the whole first post thing....

i hope to post to this [ not sure if its a blog. more like a journal ? ] seven times a month [ ambitious ! good luck ]. i won't outright delete posts, but i might edit them later on. i'm trying to emulate a stream of conciousness type [ not the joyce style stuff. like who thinks without punctuations ? not me ] thing, where i type what and how i think, if that makes sense. keep things real. basically a place where i can talk about stuff i want to talk about, stuff going on in my life, or just things that i find interesting. a sort of one sided conversation, if you will.

of course, occasional content warnings for suicidal/depressive shit and infrequent mild swearing. i'm not saying that *all* posts will be that way. more like some of will just inadvertently end up that way cos i'm that kind of a fucked up person.

all views expressed are my own and do not represent those of any other individual or organisation.